Monday, February 12, 2007
coding sheet assignment : not yet done. sighs.. sometimes, i looka t the chunks of word tt need to be absorbed in my head and i really do have the desire to sincerly know everything. yet limitations still abound. : X
Early monday morning. i will go sleep soon.
But, ive been thinking about ballet so much. it still fills my thoughts so much of the time. I kinda 'gave ballet and assured it of my love and affection'. and i realise, thots are not enough. love needs to be transferred into action. i am not going for ballet class. who will believe when i say i love ballet? what can i do with that love? now that im 'in the gap' not moving anywhere with ballet. it tears me. i want so much to do something with it. i really want to see a future with ballet. but the things which are right in front of me, do not give me an answer. "give me eyes to see the future, though it's hidden from my view". really, all i can think is this.
As valentine's day draws near. the air is filled with love. and thots of love. and it makes me sit back and ponder on how i love all the variables (hah. im usually not so scientific) in my life.
How do i love my close friends like swee, apple and lian ..
And my family; my chariyhairy, mum and dad.
then there's my other close friend, like chris dearest.
the other people, like ballet frens and kash..
And finally, those in God's family.
Those whom i really want to pray more for but so often fail. say things of encouragement yet forget them once we end conversation!? how do i really care and commit to them. like.. when they get back to you with an answer or reply.. you realise, i actually did not invest as much love as i promised i would. and then i feel loads or regret. and then i remember, 'we have not loved thee as we ought'. have not bothered enough. then i ask myself, where is Christ's love in me? where does it reside? Lord, give me your love to pass around to others please. and make me remember,remember and remember..
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 1:20 AM
