Monday, January 29, 2007


hello blog.

today. is monday.
first day of school of the week. i missed c103 lecture this morning.

but today, i was struck with violent alternative thoughts again.

i have a dream! [ala martin luther king]
that i even went to blabber on to my ballet fren all about.

even as my ballet dwindles and im losing interest.
and i still find it hard to cling on to what im studying in school

i have a dream that one day this will all change.

and all i can do, is really just pray and pray to God that He will make it happen one day. this is by far my heart's strongest desire.

But first i am always reminded that i must first delight in God. and allow Him first place.

and thereafter, Lord, will u grant it?

with all the trust i can give. for once i should really put all my faith in this.

and hear the Lord say,

charlene, For i know the thoughts that i think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11

i used to tell the Lord, that at the end of the A levels, i want to look back and know He has been gracious and faithful. and then. after last year's exam results were out, God was still faithful.

i realised my appetite for His faithfulness just got bigger.

Now,

i want to tell God, that when i look back 20 years later, will i see all that i think of unfold before my eyes? this will take great faith. now i need that!

To finally achieve that dream, and touch base with all the things i ever imagined or dreamed of...

'But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.' 1 Cor 2:9

may this promise and verse come very true in my life Lord!!!!! please please...

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 10:47 PM