Saturday, November 11, 2006


another saturday morning and im staying up in the wee hours of the morning again. this time, not doing any work,. i wasted a whole friday away not doing a single bit of work, while my sis was doing her essay draft the whole day. i did not go to school either. missed the last 106 and 816 lecture. next week's exam week.

but i just wanna say. that ballet exam results were out since monday. and i'd been putting it out of my head for four days. but later today, i'll be going for ballet and i finally have to face it.

pass or fail.

i want to pass (hell yea, everyone does) but as i think back to my exam, i do not deserve a pass. i didnt do a single proper double turn! and that's one section. fail one section, you fail the whole exam even though u passed overall. then my freework was a joke also..

sigh.

im going for balelt tomorrow, only to receive the result. and what good will i feel? i wont feel betetr if it's gonna be a fail

this result to me, makes me feel as if its gonna dictate something.
you see , when school first started and i could not focus properly, i was doing exam classes all the time. as a result, my grades did suffer. the 6/10 for first journalism quiz and the horrid ab assignment grades n lab reports. and the below average 58/100 101 mid term test. then ballet dissipated off.. october came the string of dead-lines. i tried to buck up a little and my grades did jump a lil better and i feel more hopeful.

but the main exams for the semester are coming on next week. if tomorrow's result are a pass, it'll feel like im on my way towards ok grades and such. but if it were a fail, i'd break my whole 'climbing up' momentum. and then i'd feel a sense of forboding for my final exams which are more and most important than all the other small ones.

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 3:28 AM