Saturday, October 21, 2006


Heard this song on the radio tonight and i think it's a very nice song to ponder over. the feeling i'd get is that of a young girl growing up. well, it's all said in the lyrics! don't mean to be idealistic but parts of the song does hold true for me!

Let Love Lead The Way.
Spice girls.

What makes this world go round
Will the answer let her down
She is so sweet and young
And her life has just begun
What does her future hold that's the story left unknown
Will she make it through her days, let our love lead the way
Part of me laughs (ooooh)
Part of me cries
Part of me wants to question why (question why)
What good is their joy
And why is there pain(ooh)


will the answer let her down?
when we open our eyes to things around us. when we learn the ropes of becoming an adult. we go to school, and we feel so clockwork. no mroe space for lil day dreams and lala land, which by the way, ARE essential and heavily needed for general well-being. these few days, esp today when i say in cs816 lecture, i just couldn't help but feel like i just have to go on and know all those information presented. it is interesting to know how to internet works as a complex system. but too much immersion in smart things like that and high level thoughts, drains you from your self. something like autonomy vs closeness. i still want to be an individual amidst the vast education system which just feeds us to ensure we are productive enough for society to contribute well.

her life has just begun.
for me, on the other hand, i think it's actually the beginning of the ending. i really prefer the silly life. but that is slowly fading away things are getting too serious now. you have to make yourself understood. miss it and you'll be left behind.

What does her future hold that's the story left unknown
and for that, really, only time can tell. what i'll graduate with. how many treasured people i'll eventually find at the end of it all. how many projects i will clear. will my grades eventually go up? my last few years as a student. for me to go out and enjoy. the uni life. yet im not immersing in the fun stuff yet. prof lee says when we go for a uni education, we pay such high school fees for the Experience, of a tertiary education and all its fulfilling qualities.and new horizons it'll expose us to.

question why
yea, WHY. what's the reason behind everything? i am so inquisitive

What good is their joy ,And why is there pain
and then when my joy comes, is that really what i want? is that really what will make me whole eventually and make me happily satisfied with this whole tertiary business? where most forms of joy you find around you are temporal anyway. and seeking the everylasting joy- will that be a little too boring sometimes?



No matter what we must go on
Just keep the faith
And let love lead the way
Everthing will work out fine
If you let love... love lead the way
Sitting there all alone
In the window of her room
Watching the world go by
Brings tears to her eyes
All she sees is hurt and pain, she wants to break the chain
She'll keep pressing everyday and she'll find her own sweet way
Part of me laughs (..me laughs)
Part of me cries (I cry)
Part of me wants to question why (wants to question why)

just keep the faith
yep. the most important thing is to believe. and stay strong. with trust.

watching the world go by
i just sit back and resolved to watch people. when there really is nothing else to do. and you go off into train of thoughts. you think about what they really feel, put yourself in many different shoes. and at the end of it, return to yourself. are they getting by happy? do i like what i see? are they really satisfied with their lives? everyone's life looks so perfect on the surface, but everyone harbours deep secrets and thoughts. this is under the hidden section(known to ourselves but unknown to others) of the johari's window of how we do self-disclosure.

she wants to break the chain
to stop the continuity and routine. it gets stifling and in that routine, you might lose your goals and feelings. can we take out for awhile and re-evaluate our goals and perspectives? can she break out of the norms? why this one and only perceived safe path? how to you get out for awhile to look around with a bird's eye view?

her own sweet way
yes. everyone's journey is special and unique to them. now don't be cynical here. come on! heck what others think. i bet you Do personally think that you really like and personalise and connect in your own way no one else can udnerstnad, so just be you! it's Yours and yours alone to enjoy. find it your own way and make it sweet like honey!


One day you're here (you're here)
Next you are gone (you're gone)
No matter what we must go on (I will go on)
Just keep the faith (keep your faith)
And let love lead the way (I know, I know, I know, ooh whoa..)
You can be all that and still can be who you are
You gotta know for sure that it isn't make believe
You may feel weak but you are strong
Don't you give up if...
If you keep holding on, you'll never be wrong
Just close your eyes cause it lies deep in your heart, yeah
Part of me laughs
Part of me cries (I cry)
Part of me wants to question why (question...)

no matter what we must go on
yes, perserverence is the only key..

One day you're here (you're here)
Next you're are go (you're gone)
No matter what we must go on (I will)
Just keep the faith
And let love lead the way (lead the way)
Everthing will work out fine
If you let love... love lead the way
Love lead the way


hmm. i got a lot of time to spare hor. my eyes are dead tired heavy now. 2 am again. the same time as yesterday night, 24 hours has since past and we've gone full circle.

i loved my reward for tonight. nice show for the evening, with carl's jr burger! popcorn ! and a lil chilli chicken. the prestige is a nice engaging show. i liked the suspense and the twists. although i found it hard to grasp specifically whats going on, cos i have low comprehension skills. but at least i got the Gist and liked it :)

GO AND STUDY ALREADY!!!
prepare group speech for MONDAY.
and cs 1o2 test on MONDAY. which will include readings i haven read in at least 5 weeks??!

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 1:59 AM