Tuesday, August 08, 2006
officially matriculated and plunged into all things uni. yesterday (monday,7 aug) was officially the first day of school! and three lectures in total. amounting to 5 hrs.
lectures don't really mean much.cos the shock only comes in tutorials when you realise-crap! i actually didnt understand those lectures! or crap! why do i not know this or that?!
and tutorials only start next week.
so after just one looong day at school ( the 4 hr break was the most tiring if u ask me). i get a day off on tue again! so im slacking off again and staying up. and i know i can wake up late tmr!
the journalism lecture this morning got me feeling like i was once again in the wrong place. cos. DR cherian george just had to reveal to us the lack of domain knowledge we'd suffer from in doing a course such as sci. my thoughts initially, where to put it in a very glazed-over manner-- was that sci was a course in which you just learn skills anyone can learn later in life. as compared to deep profound wonders of geog and the artsy subjects.
but they said they'd make up for that. somehow. and to advise us to minor in fields we're interested in to give us back-up knowlegde.
second lecture abt PR and stuff like tt. i was suppsoed to be most interested in tt. but currently, at the moment, i think it'd take more than one lecture to further spark that interest in me.
loong break. walking all over. met lilian! next lecture at 430. by then i was super tired. but thank God it was interactive so it was a good way to end the day and make it fun!
ms verena tay doesnt look as frenly and nice as her name does. but her lecturing is good. and fine. i mean she;s a public speaker. what u expect.
one thing which meakes me whine a little each time is that. whenever i search out a professor's background, and realise they initially majored in literature, or social science, or sth other than to do with communications and yet in the end end up teaching us. i feel. hey! they also din do comm studies from the start WHAT!
and i've got acquainted with many more people today. thanks to peiyan. but still haven't found huimin. ehehe. i'll be super excited when i do. when that day comes.
and i got woken up by a call from fajar sec this morning. to remind me of my once job fill-ed,student amusing, money making life.
and it just started to rain quite heavily in the wee hours of tuesday morning.
-and i missed ballet today.this cannot go on. but i have no other options!
waiting for a miracle. to conquer to chenneys,double pirouettes,adages,pointe work.
ok i should stop. mentioning everything again makes me scared.
sigh
oh but anyway, i guess i jsut have to slowly learn to let go of my silly fass dreams and fantasies cos this is the final path i've chosen. and it looks just as promising and much more exciting too!
the real reason which scares me is that im just not up to it. that's all.
but for that problem. God, just hold me up ok.
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 1:51 AM
