Tuesday, July 25, 2006


was actually meaning to blog each and everyday of what we did in darwin but that takes far too much effort. and i blogged last wk but blogger screwed and i saved it into word instead and since blogger doesnt seem to have copy n paste function then nevermind.

so soon, two weeks since i was in darwin has passed. so no more thinking back.

but last week's ballet was atrocious. hoping for the 'improvement' to show itself soon with more practice.

so on saturday, i was feeling like shit that ballet was there again.

but before that, thursday's cycling with swee and friday meeting at pamela's place was all good. so it made me feel even worse abt saturday. cos the stark contrast was like n and s pole. you can say 'poles apart'.

and it was a relief ms ong wasn't there. i guess sometimes you just feel you need a break. when you know your body will give you shit that day, you don't want your teacher to see. so i was glad for the time we had to 'train on our own'. well, we did a little of inter and then did a little centre and pointe. mostly self practice. well, at least enough pointe for my toes to hurt the next day. but my pointe has gone to the dogs and it hurts very easily now. damn shit.

but then there was something else to smile about on saturday. our jazz results came back. i wasn't expecting to do well cos of all the mistakes and i have a record for being an awkward jazz dancer. but alas, the result was truely surprising when i pulled out the paper. for most part, the examiner gave a HS score.meaning, highly skilled.it just looked like it wasn't mine.so that really got me smiling. all thanks to veron , ms shen our teacher, and my friend.

But at that moment of course you can't run away, cos my mind automatically went to 'Thank You God!'. everytime when i say i feel detatched from a result and it isn't mine, i actually mean that as i look at the result slip, i see someone else's work,yet funnily its my name there. and i know it was God behind it. His wonderful hand scored that mark for me.or blinded the examiner's eyes to the mistakes,or gave her the mercy to still be generous in awarding credits. And he chose to reflect His glory and power through me. So i'm telling everyone here, that my God is Great! and Powerful!and Awesome!
don't believe? just see me in jazz class.

or maybe God just knew i needed some form of encouragement regarding the september exam coming up.to give more motivation.that things are possible when He's around. because it's scaring the shit out of every exam girl. 5 of us.

above all, whenever im faced with such blessing, i will wonder what all this means and what's it all gonna be. why God? why these good stuff? is it supposed to build up to something you're planning for the future?! how is dance supposed to fit in?

God just knows my heart, im telling you! because, last wednesday,although ms ong walked out of class in a fit, i was hoping we'd do barrework for enough warm up. which we did! hehe.but it didnt seem to work. but in any case, at least barrework helped to use class time so she wouldn't walk out sooner than she did.plus last sat when i felt i couldnt dance, she wasnt there and we had a break.

and being the youngest kid. i can still go home and manja my parents.it was really silly of me to repeat the primary sch scene by showing my parents the jazz result. haha. but i was a happy duck when i reached home! and they have no idea what jazz is. so i urm. showed them abit. and they started laughing. and couldn't understand what ms dalton saw instead. and we must remember, im still that fat girl. so when i dance, its still really, not a very pretty sight. :P

and today is a good day cos we get to rest from ballet. :P
going to yishun later to meet sweeling! just gotta figure which bus stop to take 171 from. or rather, i don't have to walk the long canal! yay.

oh btw. on sunday, i came down with Conjunctivities. poor contact lens care. burning red eyes. will take one week to clear. foggy left eye. i hope its not cataract/glaucoma or corneal ulcer. but im thinking it might be a fusion of all three. its scary la. to have blur 'fogged up' :p vision.

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 10:28 AM