Wednesday, May 24, 2006
My life i give
to you o Lord,
use me i pray
may i glorify thy precious name
in all i do and say
let me trust you in the valley dark
as well as in the light
knowing you will always lead me
your will is always right
i know God makes no mistakes
He leads in every path i take
along the way that's leading me to home
Though at times my heart would break
there's a purpose in every change he makes
that others would see my life and know
that God makes no mistakes.
And when someday
in hea'vn above
i see His dear face
may i then be counted faithful as a runner in this race
but now im trusting in the saviour
to show me the way
in His righteousness he guides me
as i seek to please him day by day
i know God makes no mistakes
He leads in every path i take
along the way
thats leading me to home
though at times
my heart would break
there's a purpose in every change He makes
that others would see my life and know that
God makes no mistakes. (amen to this)
it's amazing! how i managed to find a song at first try on alta vista again and its the one im looking for! they always give rubbish, or cant access. i have the score to this on piano too. but since i cant play well. its really good to hear it being sung w nice piano accompanian.
dear Lord God , fears are bombarding me now. and i suddenly see bleakness in my next step. but i know these are all cos of me n my head. and my insecurities. so they're not from you. but nonetheless they still attack me. All is ask, is that at the end of all this, i will see your face at the end of this maze,this tunnel. and just know and be at rest. my heart breaking now-- that's just a sideline right?
Thanks to God for always being there.
i think this 'peace above all the ugly which can happen' is a lil sadistic and masochistic in nature. like going for what i know will hurt. perhaps cultivated from years of ballet. in my opinion, the purest form of inflicting pain is by bashing your toes countless times(yet continue to do so),because they look so beautiful on the outside.as if the beauty of pointe you see outwardly compels you to ignore the pain and go up and up again n again. to me, that is what i call love.
and in the same way,
this choice im making is a sign to show i love God( at least enough).to surrender and let him lead.
to look back and know this choice i made, is a mark to remind myself i did give myself over.
[because most other days i feel like nothing but a backslided gone case.cos i dont do qt n all tt prayer stuff]
you can pretty much say, my life. cos this involves my career.
because how sure can you be of spiritual matters deep deep down in the heart? might as well manifest them outwardly; physical terms.to reflect the inward.if not there's no proof!
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 11:24 PM
