Monday, April 10, 2006


i went to sleep happy last night, expecting to be awoken by a wake up call from my dearest schools but no. i woke up at 10 plus, bright lights all around, followed by a call from swee with not so nice news. but anyway, waking to find that its bright, ands the first thot is.. 'so there was no call' and then a lil relief. but once i crawl outta bed im done. nothing to do. my life revolves around getting expected impromtu calls in the morning. i guess that's what i need to kickstart my day and make me feel a little more useful. cos school will run till mid afternoon. after which i take my lunch and scoot off to evening ballet class without time to think in the middle. and a day will be gone like tt. then i'll feel 'worked' and 'worthy' but neglect the need to think through things and have time for myself.

but today, is a different scenario. i have the exact opposite. i wake up and have nth to do! now im beginning to think am i just an empty baseless freak (fuck wld be a better wrd) without external factors. im all empty on my own!! anyway. i woke up and ate the last of the cheese and choc cake from last night. and am waiting for the correct time to go opposite to get my lunch. and then more stoning till my time for ballet comes. is this supposed to be called 'relaxing?' but i checked out 'dino's' website already. and hehe. i will book myself into a dance fitness class later at 430 :D then at 530 go for jazz at 630. so i get to leave the house at 330. not so stoned anymore. so three more hours. a nap will solve all that. hehe.

and obviously. part of finding things to do. includes coming here to the com to blog. which will eat time. so i can get lunch at 1230. actually. i was supposed to go blading w lydia today :S but nvr followed up w plans.

hmm...nvm. maybe i should just be quiet and do what i really wanna. which is just calm down and vegetate. for what i always wanted. tmr i really pray the sch calls me!! clean my room perhaps. get the pile of clothes to their respective places. im starting to feel hungry now.

so soon, it'll be good friday. and then we'll have the last yf outing.

i received the prospectus i ordered from la-salle. reading the thing is interesting. interested in arts management, theatre arts or hurhur dance. but i applied for arts management already. interview on 26 april. theatre arts sounds more interesting than arts management. and i wasnt sure to go for what i like or be a dope like everyone else in nus and struggling. but nus is established and all tt. then i will be able to join vcf/fcm, join some cca if i like, perhaps stay in hall and all tt. anyway, i was thinking, if theatre studies in nus is very much like the theatre arts tt la-salle offers. but then again, being nus. its competition and i know im not up to it :(

im just a freak(/alternative f). argh.

hmm..i can go change now and go get my lunch right about now. thanks for reading on how i pass my time. i guess april will be a loser month for me. the number of times i blog signify the empty nothing to do pockets in my life.

anyway, thank God kids church was good and fine ytd despite minimal prep. :S and at choir ytd, chris presented me teaching material for lower junior worship! in two wks time. first time for both of us trying. to relieve aunty radha of her load. must do this properly and enthusiasticly. : /

and..i get to collect my specs today! and my parents will think, 'where did that come from!?'

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 12:05 PM