Tuesday, April 25, 2006
ANYWAY, Dino dance school turned out to be a NUT. the class was non existent! i went there and stood outside for half an hour. there was a notice pinned on the door that they'll be back later. and then came 4.30 and then 4.45 and still no one. no school owner, no instructor, no students for class, only the stupid note which reads 'sorry, we will be back shortly..if anything urgent, please call ..'. i was thinking what is this?! so anyway, i walked off and just went for jazz rehearsals. so much for fitness.
And, april is not sucha loser month after all la. but hmm..im sitting at home again abt two weeks later still with nothing to do and blogging. think i'll change the skin. this shall be the last entry before i change to this green skin which struck me first and i cant be bothered to look around more. that is if everything works out well for me to set the layout right for the new skin.
hmm and in the past two weeks, went to fajar sec three times. yf outing on good friday was ok. dampened by the rain though.
and i find myself really sleepy of late. no movie interests me. and i fell asleep during 'take the lead' which iw atched with veron on a saturday. and people say 'its very nice!' and im like..hmmm..yea. but cant rememebr much.
and i finally passed basic theory last week! and went for a first lesson that same wednesday night. so yay. ive sat in the driver's seat.i feel stupid now talking about rubbish like that.
hmm..jazz performance at cc last saturday was good and 'dance on us' was fine too. but the re was this kid who kept talking so much. i am now a relief teacher of everything la! ballet also. hehe.
junior worship last sunday was ok. but nope chris n i did not manage to do it 'enthusiastically' it was slipshod work again. sigh. i cant teach or do it anymore. dont feel the zeal anymore. and feel like a cheat when i teach the kiddies. cos im a screwed up ass myself. and sunday school discussion was crap too. luke did all the work in the end. shame on me..cos i def have more time than him but it went to places i know not. anywae, im just glad the previous weekend is over! it was filled with crap. like the kids ballet class with no music but sis helped me get it in the end, the jazz performance and the lower junior worship. and i was kinda dreading ntu interview yesterday too.
but thank god it went well. maybe because my sister dearest prayed for me even though i was in a shit mood. cos i missed my driving lesson ytd morning. so cool. i got woken up by a bbdc msg which went like' Hi CHARLENE TAN SU EN, you have missed a theory/practical lesson at 800 hrs. from:BBDC. ' i thot the damn lesson was at 950. i am an ass. was freaking pissed. sitting there trying to absorb the feeling of how it felt to have 60 bucks gone like THAT.
and then i came to a conclusion. its just money. Fk it. equivilent to one day wage at schoool. haha. just take it that it never happened. since money can be lost just like tt. i guess tt makes me more relaxed abt spending cash. which is really cool. im beginning to learn the ropes of retail therapy. i mean money is just paper. a figure in the atm bank account. just numbers which reduce each time. its fine as long as u dont see it. besides if u spend it on sth, other than food, you gain it 'to have and to hold from that day forth'. in your posession. hehe. so its tangible and u can see where your money went. like..how i dont regret splurging on tt lil ring i thot nth of at first or just blindly getting 2 socks without much thot.i guess this is how materialism and all that nonsense breeds. but ah what the heck!
its better than having seen all the things u like in a shop and its not yours to enjoy so whats the point. the feeling of posessing it is different! my views have changed! and that's why its called THERAPY. there is a calming effect to it.
and nvm. money can be earned back right. all i need is another day at school. hmm..but that is not coming as yet. my business quite slow now. but zhenghua dearest called me ytd after soo long. after dumping me for others as i heard frm my cousin. tmr is already wednesday. plus mye coming soon. relief teaching jobs are dwindling.
bumped into caryn yesterday at raffles city. she's my old ballet fren who's doing theatre arts at la salle. so it ignited a spark of remembrance in me to consider that option too. cos its so fun and she said 'she wanted to do something different away from mainstream'.anyway they silly school pushed my interview to 17 may. so late!
hmm i have nothing more to say. except i have ballet later. i pon ballet ytd, cos ' i have no more school to pon'. and im working night shift at fullerton later. a one man show. stupid la. act big and heroric. offered to take tuesdae night shift for deming who's a guy. and hence does the shift alone. so yay me. never think properly and then kena like tt lor!
just a note. to pray for benedict who's going psc interview tmr. my sister's prayer got more effect shall tell her pray for him. hehe.
and swee and i got 2 free tickets to catch a movie by this wk at the newly opened cathay cineplex. the ticket looks like /is a flyer actually. hehe. but its really cool.
ate duck rice with mum for breakfast this morning. actually im not clear if ballet is in the afternoon later. plus 'you raise me up' rehearsal at night. but im working. act big kena such repurcussions. all the best to me.
alrite. time to change skin now.welcome the upgrade!
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 9:55 AM
