Sunday, March 26, 2006


just as i was feeling dissatisfied with church matters, and thinking fo ripping myself outta that community(not serious thot. dont worry). i was at yf today again for the second week.

and i realised..the people i mingle with are really a cute bunch which i will miss if i ever leave one day.

first, there's joel ben and jared who so patiently teach the guitar lessons.. joel benn and all his antics...the poking and how i can just tok cock with him..cos he's just JB! and then there's joel mohan who used to irritate the shit outtta me but had to be nice to him since he was chris's bro but after e chiangmai trip, tt changed. he's a really helpful kid with funny stories to tell week after week abt the silly people in school.

and there's alissa and benjamin. who really make me smile..cos they somehow remind me of this childlike quality. as young and immature and innocent as i try to stay, i cant run awae from the fact that i grow up day by day and see more of things which affect me subconsciously to become the person i am becoming. they laugh at me being silly and tell me to wise up sometimes but they are even sillier than that at other times.eg:like how they strum crazily on the guitar or benjamin shooting his mouth off w rubbish cos 'he's stressed'.

singing the alto part with alissa on sop and simeon on tenor made me realise that i liked the choir songs i've learnt to sing over the years. everything is just very nice and comfortably placed.

and the other people whom i dont talk to much but are there include joan, pamela, rebecca and racheal,tze shuin,timothy whom ive known since young but nv tok to.its just these figures of pple around u..tho u dont tok to them its wad ure familiar with.

and then there's my sunday sch class which includes the gumapon brothers, khengling, and some others mentioned already.

and of course my all time old old ss class from kid days..what's left of us--belinda, luke, benedict,adeline,jocelyn aunty chin.. and mostly, chris dear.

along with all the kpo aunty and uncle.

the people are great. i am happy with that. and i thank God for that.

but swing to spiritual matters and what if..im not growing and am struggling? going to church is about God ultimately. where my focus can't be right...how can i progress?

im growing up and things have to get serious and real one day. i cant always be glossing the surface in happy smiles and laughter and think everything will be alright and something will make it right. when will the day come, where i step out and hopefully change the things which really need to be.

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 12:16 AM