Friday, September 02, 2005


happy friday morning!

its 2.38 am and i am soaking in the atmosphere. it's been a long time since i stayed up this late doing--work. hey i remember its a nice feeling! hope to catch myself up and about this time tmr.

all thanks to utopian lit.

thanks swee! if not for you, i wouldn't even have sniffed the paper.

and at such hours, your mind wanders and you think troubling/absurd/out of this world thots.

*when you're really filled to the brim in your bladder with pee, and u finally woosh it all out..how long does it take for your bladder to empty? im thinking a good 20 sec. yesterday, i was peeing and i only started counting halfway thru and it amounted to 14 sec. im estimating 6 sec prior to that. in future, i'd take note the moment i sit on e toilet. that's if i remember. and not too urgent and just let it all go..

next thot.. i suddenly thot about mr took and how he chopped huang na up. very viscious man. was asking my friends how can anyone bear to do that? esp since he was a friend of theirs. well. reason:mentally unsound. ok fine whatever he was. i think its really hard to chop someone up.

and then another thot flashed into my mind..chopping babies up. cos i figured since it was so hard to chop a person, babies would be easier. and then it came to mothers abandoning their babies leaving them to die after they deliver them. i say:stupid. not because they leave the babe there. but more so cos,number1: giving birth is an ardous task and in my opinion,ranks second after cruxifiction (excluding all e weird atrocities of torture people thot up along the way). so why wld any mother go thru all tt agony and just dump the baby there to die? number 2: after dragging feet around for nine months and all tt inconvenience, surely you dont just commit murder the moment the baby is delivered right.
number three: if im not wrong, i think every mother will feel love for their baby once they set eyes upon it right? it's a mechanism included in the package they call 'maternal instincts'.

ok nvm. i give them the benefit of the doubt: 1 the baby was stillborn. 2 they were desperate and had no other option. 3 they were blind.

going to sleep ending w such thots is really unhealthy.

my tummy's growling a lil but it's too late for food now. ahh..on to better things.. i can start thinking what to eat for breakfast now (:

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 2:37 AM