Thursday, March 17, 2005
great. there was a lizard in my room at about 730 when i was out. and now, almost 4 hours later, i look around my [messy] room and i wonder where it could be hiding. has it left my room? or did it die among the toxic fumes of my smelly nest? whatever it has done to itself, i seriously hope for it to just leave my room. i really hope its not in there anymore.
a few days ago, i saw a big lizard in the study room. and another few nights prior to that, when i went to the kitchen for a late night drink after midnight, i saw a big lizard near the dining area.
it's either they're hiding somewhere in the house or they were just visiting. where do lizards stay anywae? i was wondering. since the roaches come from the garbage chute. where do the lizards come from? hmm.. garbage too? they dont look so smelly..they feed on flies anyway.
shoo go away. there are no flies in my house!
it's high time i clean my room again. i get the signal. they always come three months after my room's too dirty. i need to repack all my stuff and file in all my worksheets.
cos seriously, as i scan my room, i see A LOT of hiding places for the lizard/roach in every corner. my room is full of things! i did a thorough check by kicking every stack of thing in my room. no nothing came out of it. i am quite convinced the lizard has left the tourist site.
i have tonnes of homework, in every subject, incompleted. and yet i wont have the time tmr to complete it! waking early to go to venus drive. i have no idea how to get there from bishan station. and then i have dance in school till 430. ahh. long day tmr. i better sleep soon. but im scared of my room again cos of the lizard.
how to sleep in peace?
had bible study tonight. studying from this guide book experiencing God. it's a lil like 'purpose driven life' just that it's more focused on our relationship with our Heavenly Father. there were so many distractions! phone call after phone call! Satan was trying to sneak himself into our bible study. haha! and i'm glad God answered my prayer for such a thing.
i just want to see myself open up more and share more than just appear to be stoning. to remember and rejoice because of God's goodness in my life. so i can grow and increase my faith.
you know so many blessings He's granted me this year, many tiny tiny little blessings, and yet i tend to forget. so when people ask me, my mind always goes blank and im like 'what's wrong with you?!'
so in the coming weeks, i wanna see God's hand in my life and those around me more vividly.
Yes Lord, take me by the hand and lead me to places unfamiliar! as long as He's by my side, to be my guide. :)
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 11:58 PM
