Friday, October 22, 2004
sorry sorry. im sorry i said all those things,which were so negative and horrible. my vocab is super limited. the words i always use are like, 'super' 'horrible' 'terrible' 'happy' 'shit' latest, 'HORSESHIT!' 'crapstick's' nice too.
ah ok.
in future, i must always remember, no matter how one thing may seem and no matter how much im so unwilling to go, things always turn out better than expected. what i did in the end, slept at 4, hmm, read psalm 91 for encouragement.
i woke up at 930, and reached school at 11. yes i know ive been taking it as if school is my grandfather's. haha. so much so my wonderful class, thought up this crazy thing that i go out slaying vampires at night thus always waking up late and being late for school. 'charffy the vampire slayer' hmm. u guys are funny :)
this whole week, i cant recall. i was on e dot on mondae, 815 on tuesdae, 12 on wednesday, early and on time on thursdae, and 11 on friday. nice week.
im just glad its all over. this whole week has been so so weird. i was in and out of mood swings, overly thinking stuff and being a total crapstick. im glad its over. its worse than pms. i think i suffer from post mentrual syndrome. all the crappy feelings only surface after the thing's over.
and yes, i wanna thank God that i dont suffer too badly from cramps. wanyu was suffering from cramps today during dance, and nana was telling us how she needed panadol and it can sometimes get so bad, she'll vomit and almost faint. ee that's so scary. and then i feel guilty for just popping panadol when it hardly hurts, to be in total comfort. guess i better stop if not if one dae i should really suffer, panadol wont work for me anymore.
dance was better than expected. i know i dont like it. but you see, when you're in it, you cant like, tell yourself 'i hate this' all the way, it'll just be soso bad, and make you feel worse. ig uess i prefer evening practices. its cooler, and i feel better. i dont like morning sessions. and forgo-ed tuition todae. mr chen didnt even bother to reply me anymore. ouch.
assumption is a very dangerous thing.
i've come to realise.
and many people often assume too much causing much strife and unhappiness. sighs.
just a random thought.
oh yes, on the whole, the dae was better than expected. i think there were a few down moments, but i cant remember. its raining now and its so cool im feeling so relaxed. and i havent bathed. its 1142. man. i think im gonna be late tmr.
i know alot of pple wont believe me, but i hate being late. not so, rather im just getting sick of myself and all tt nonsense. what more others around me. im sorry to all of you. cant wait to shoot me.
my inspiration comes from mich woo and lee lian who's always late. mich t's the only one ALWAYs on the dot. when im super late, i'll think of ah mun and go, ahh! my fren. haha. when im late, i'll think of leelian. when im early i go to the canteen to look for mich t, who will nv fail to be there. :)
things gotta do over the weekend.
pw evaluation.
kids church.
oh and yes, i guess the day was good and better cos i remembered to pray :) on the 180 bus before eating my sugar biscuits. :) God led me thru e dae. love lifted me! lalala.
'Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy God, He it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. ' Deuteronomy 31:6
comforts!
Deut 31:8 'and the Lord,He it is that doth go before thee;He will be with thee, he will not fail thee;neither forsake thee:fear not, neither be dismayed.'
ok just a few verses :)
hmm.mummy's so impatient and always losing her temper.she keeps yelling at me to take the supplements even when my tummy is full to the brim, and she closes all the windows when its raining- just when i was enjoying the cool breeze. she insisted sis switched off all the lights regardless of whether i was awake or not cos i wouldnt do it. yup shes so touchy and agitated these days.
also, all my folks ever talk about these days is the water purifyer. seriously i feel worried for them. worried that because of that, their frens may find them a possible pain. can u imagine having a fren, whom when u meet up with after a long break, tells u about another new product from unicity if youve already bought the purifyer, if not re-tells u all over again about the purifyer and how impt it is. now wheres the fun in that?
i merely commented over dinner about it, and she said it's business and yea that's how people do business. now i know why many business people have few close frens. theyre boring.
guess what she's gonna tell uncle david about if shes going for popiah dinner at granny's house? need i say more? i cringe at the thought of it. who knows what u.david will think. esp sucha strong willed man, who is so opinionated and a tad stuck up.
i'll drown myself in popiah tmr.
i really really feel sorry and worry for them.
its 12. i'll have what u call, a midnight shower.
now does that sound romantic or just plain rheumatic?
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 11:29 PM
