Wednesday, June 16, 2004


whee THANK You LORD!!!

:)

so happy. finally cleared lit todae and teaching e basics of dance turned out to be enjoyable. i guess its satisfying to see an improvement knowing that you aided it. :) hey first time i tried teaching on a larger scale. e previous time i remember was when ms ong sent each of us lazing around to correct the little girls. man her feet was soo tiny, i was so afraid i'd twist her ankle or sth! and i remember i taught one girl how to skip o.O funny it may seem. but it actually required me to break down a skip and then she finally got it. then u feel happy!

so aniwae, todae in school, we were teaching basic 5 positions of both arms n feet placement. after lotsa adjustments n corrections, proper forms were beginning to show. i must sae it was a fruitful session and i got more than what i expected.

but im never fully confident of myself and its quite a job trying to correct each one. though only 4 were present. its like working w diff body structure. of course theirs didnt vary as greatly as mine. haha. then tried to explaIN the technical theory part. I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH THEY UNDERSTOOD COS I WENT ON N ON ABOUT LIFTING N PULLING UP N SQUEEZING THE BUTT And oops! sorry for caps. and 'feeling e line' they mustve thought i went mad.

plus it takes more energy than i thot it would! gaah. then i had doubts if i'd like to teach for good. sigh. what to do if i just happen to not have e gift.

but tt seems like e only option to go into in future cos its 'sth different' n offers a diff kind of satisfaction. i really admire how ms ong goes on n on esp on saturdaes. 9 to 6 non stop. gaah. i wld just die. no wonder she's so pissed w us sumtimes at e end of e dae hahaha.

oh but then again. maybe id feel more than satisfied if i were paid:P not tt im greedy ok. but i mean wont reward drive u on to work harder? all im getting now is satisfaction n zero value!! not tt i mind actualli :)

i'll try dance one dae perhaps after A's when im more free.

and veron's getting sick of it i think. hehehe.

aniwae, im very happy i managed to complete my 2 lit essays on utopian writing. 1) cos i had nuts idea abt e characteristics of utopian writing. 2) nor how effective george orwell was in portraying a distopian world of 1984. BUT thank God, he led me through, really. though it took painfully long time. as usual sat in macs again, 4 to 7. felt so happy after tt. cos, after e first essay, i really thot i could go on no longer, rested my head on e table n let my eyes rest, then i thot i should write e qtn out on e foolscape at least. so i wrote it and then sumhow i thank God i just continued with the essay and after awhile, e words just flowed. and i finished e final essay earlier than expected. it was as if e final straw was like God leading me n pushing me on to finish.of course this scale of comparison is wae tiny, but i could still relate to the verse, isaiah 40:31 "They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. they shall mount up with wings like eagles.they shall run and not be weary,they shall walk and not faint."

it was really renewed strength at that moment :)

on another note, i must rant tt im getting so soo sick of essay AFTEr ESSAY. its killer! i dont know why i chose this combi (not tt i had many options to choose from) but still..ok i like e subject combi and all, but its just so pissifying!

i found out todae 1) the arts pple were e ones loaded w hw 2) my hw is just endless essay after essay. i work at a painfully slow rate so it takes me an hour on ave for me to whip up an essay. and its just words n more words. its amazing im STILL blogging here and not sick of WORDS. as they sae. "its only words" hah! yea rite. n words can kill! if u have to gather them together into mountains of essays.

its so irksome! u do econs, so u take out e foolscape. then ure happy ure done! then geog comes along and what do u know? MORe essays. so u slog through. then ure elated. n THEN lit! and so, u continue with ur ink drained pen, writing essays about thots n feelings n which author wrote what. grrrr. at e end, u get about 6 pages of foolscape filled with ur lousy handwryting on everyline.

and has anyone considered that at the end of all that, u hand it up and a UG comes back to greet you? for my case at least, tt's v possible. n when tt happens. what more options am i left with? possibly rewrite e essay again.

*faints*

honky lesson tmr at 9. just when i thot fridae n sat wld be free, guess WHAT? cip, 10am city hall on fridae,7am on sat n 7am on sun, im not going on sundae. dont care. my hols!!!! -horrified-

oh but i still must sae THANK U Lord~

left w 2 econs DRG qtns, loads of mcq, and chinese bk review.
and wait! latimer wants silas marner done by end of hols. annotating e whole text.

and somehow i still feel a sense of peace. its amazing i can still stay calm as michelle always says.

isaiah 26:3 "you will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you because he trusts in You "

lovely isnt it?

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 11:36 PM