Tuesday, June 29, 2004
already half a year gone n i still wonder what on earth am i doing. to begin with, all e previous minor failings have shot up to major ones. i will first announce of my newly acclaimed F's. three in a row infact. very nicely, for math econs n mt. all of which im e lowest in class if not around there also.
how much brighter can my outlook be with F's in my face? oh if only it was F for fantastic and A for atrocious. then perhaps i'd be able to at least look up and smile.
some canteen aunty told me i looked v happy todae o.O truth, wasnt.
i thot i was e only unsettled alien on the planet and i know im not alone (not tt its a gd thing) but my dearest bestie's faced with a dilemma now.im sure many others out there too. look, i'd like to think we're just normal people, who have unfortunately landed ourselves into studying w a bunch of..over smarts pple thus feeling lost and off track.
hey girl, we will make it THRU e rain? we will stand up once again. hey! did i just get a song from miriah carey? hey girl! how bout tt as our theme song?
now how does it go again?
"i can make it thru e rain, i will/can stand up once again" ? sth sth cos im strong enuff...is tt it?
hey its a gd song! :)
had pe todae n ballet yesterdae n todae. my calves so painful now. they need major stretching. i need a full body massage.
the only thing keeping me happy is God and ballet. inbetween snippets when i feel lowly.
and exam is in sept!tts 2 mths awae. sooner than i thot."when are u gonna work on ur wt?" came ms ongs voice in e car...gee i dunno! but it better be soon.
i gotta go back to just dance phase again n hope i lose it. but if i remember clearly, it was zero chocs, alot of browned pears n apples. and alot of sweat.
do i have to go thru all tt again? mann..
jo chris n i chaired for kids church on sundae. its gd e kids were quieter than usual. mustve been e prayer before e thing. God answered.
on sat, kai eng n i were telling nana abt christianity. u can call it somewhat evangelising. and this unexplainable joy came over me. i guess its e joy from God, within. man tt was true joy. it was an awesome feeling. n i was happy for e rest of e dae.
went to watch kai eng's salsa class. shes good! and its so fun. but too bad i cldnt picture myself in her place cos id be stepping on my poor partner's toes all e time. i never fail to bump or whack someone when dancing. im morphing in dino part 2!!
my thots r so random tonight. should just go sleep now. i only ate one piece of choc todae :)
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 11:58 PM
