Tuesday, March 23, 2004
only using this short half hour here to blog, cos its a better way to waste time than to munch away senselessly at anything i see, which is really rather pointless.
so here i am, waiting for 1030 , when smallville start. the only reason why im watching it, is cos, 1. kristin k. is damn damn pretty and 2. its a special episode today in which its in the 1960s. so its something interesting. i couldve spent this half hour on the stupid show incredible tales on 5 but the stories freak me out, although its rather cheesy cos its singapore version of ghost story. also its gonna be silly to scare myself out for nothing esp when im home alone again. speaking of which i dont know where my folks are. i only rememebr vaguely mum telling me to get my own dinner today. so i ate rice and fish and vege again. i ate the same thing for lunch, only diff style fish. chose cabbage as the vege side. i seem to be eating only fish now adays. i'd choose that over chicken, cos chicken is fatty.
reached home almost at 8. then i watched police and thief, and then oh carol and lightyears. then time thankfully passed. but the shows are getting so so horrible. ch 5 must do sth. police and thief is a lousy show in which they try to get ch 8 actors to improve their english by starring them in such shows, for mark lee to possibly extend his fame to the ch 5 viewers. but whats the whole use when his english is still sucky and grammatically wrong? the story-line is worse. its senseless. its as if the producers are really squeezing their brain juices out trying to get sth for those poor actors to do, with their deplorable standard of english. and its a tough job. but why make life so hard when they can just do away with those particular characters of the whole show? then they can do sth which consists of better language and story. i reckon ch 5 viewers would rather do away with them anyday~
oh carol! is just so that carol cheng can increase awareness of her marvellous existence in the tv industry here in singpaore, again, to get herself more fame and publicity. but to allow herself to be portrayed as a desperate 40 sth year old lusting over her puppy ex boyfriend, its again stupid. grrr!!! watching tv is also frustrating when ure not getting anything good outta it. its a total waste of time. maybe just a better more brainless way to waste it, in which i have to subject myself to. just my luck.
lightyears? dont even bother. its just a show to put these teen yuppies in the limelight. again so that crazy singapore youngsters will know of their wasted existence and have sth more to idolise and oogle at. gaaaah. all rubbish and crap if you ask me.
and i stupidly watched all three shows. wasting one and a half hours. :(
when will smallville start? lets face it. if the tv industry in sgp cannot make it, i rather they just screen all those foreign ang mo shows. and let us all be happy.
the practice last night was good, and so was friends!and amaerica's next top model :D sth to smile about finally. smallville...well yea. beats the afore mentioned shows and certainly serves as a good remedy.
hmm..school today was dreary. for one, i wasnt in the best of moods so it was all just me. the programme todae was better i suppose. not as boring as yesterday. also cos the aircon was cooler and i got to sleep on the floor. and the dance was good. cheers are coming along too. tomorrow will be the last dae for 1st intakes. then on thurs n fridae we have a very "interesting" entreprenuership project workshop. blah~
i took the form for pre-u seminar. dunno wad the hell its about. but since sis went for it before and samantha went for it last year. i think i should try at least to rope myself in when given this chance and finally do sth worth-while with my loserfied life.
but when i looked at the form, they asked things like.."im ready to lead","i am prepared to do research", "i am prepared to help out in the project ". and then i was like oh shit. i was so not in the mood to do such stuff. i normally slack away at the back of the line when faced with such tasks. oh shall ask wither sis or sam about it. i guess its usefull sumhow. "to get scholarships" and the like. as if id ever qualify but if it will look good on my record if i go for it, why not? they people up there wont know that i made a fool outta myself there. it'll just be stated i went ( thats if i do ) and tts all they need to know!
everytime i step into school these past two days, i get the slight feeling of dread. not because i dont like it there, but because im still unsure about the decision i made. ive only been feeling like this of late. its as if i made the wrong choice. that jc education isnt cut out for me. i feel so sick of studying. i dread the thought of starting school proper. but maybe if not that, then im afraid of not being able to get what;s going on in class, and then i'll be so messed up, i dont pull thru this year and really reallly retain. or, if i do make it thru, wad if i dont do well enough at A's? i just feel as if im dragging it thru cos im not too clear with any other route, and that since everyone's in it, i should just go with the flow. but what if that's not me? and im just trying to match up to it? since sis was from a jc, and so were many many other people, i should just go along w it. but what if i fail? what if...just what if? i;ve lost the drive to study. im sick of it all. and i pull myself to schoole evrydae just to feel so bored and think nothing but skipping lectures and spending time up in the cafe. its clearly the road to doom im taking. im gonna die. time will just tell how things all turn out.
10.21pm...yay 9 min more to waste.
got my uniform yesterday. decided not to change skirt. believe it or not, i wear size 29! whow! stunning. cos no more size 30 available.
mr leow scolded us this morning. couldnt careless. i was slumped, sleeping in my chair.just very sleepy the whole of today la. slept at close to two. so shit.
infact i'd love to sleep now, but i wanna watch smallville la.
todae, a few people from sa and ac came back to crash. apparently, theyre not very happy and a number wants to appeal back to jj. one poor guy was even telling us the tr at sa screwed him upside down and gave him a shelling twice in his two days there. what nice welcome. bishi said they treated them like shit. and the tr who screwed e poor guy, gave him e withdrawal form todae! arent they crazy in there?! i cant believe la. that such things would happen. maybe im being sour grape la! but... i heard such horrible takes from a number. but then again, it all depends on the individual.
sheryl said its hard to find frens at ac. cos they've all formed various cliques. that i understand. poor girl. marie went to ac to accompany her. so nice of her and wad a cute thing to do. the only reason y she's there is cos of music elective. had her auditions today. wish her all the best!!
hmm..but then on the other hand, jac who's in ac isnt bad :) naaah! shes not. hmm... i guess its just e thing of not being there earlier. maybe the people in jj feel out too. i dunno...
alrite. its 1028!! yay. ive successfully wasted half an hour again.
shall spend the last 2 mins walking around the house.
hmm...i think ive made up my mind to go for the SDT audition for sleeping beauty. i just wanna see the "outside world" of ballet. i wanna do the class audition. i know i wont make it. size wise for one :P
ironic how steph talked about it too in her blog.
asked vivien about it today. she may be going to. hmm..but im not too sure.
i mean, one, is to get more exposure, and two, IF and only IF they got cock eye and i sumhow make it, then my little dream of performing on the esplanade stage will be fulfilled :)
there's only two ways about it to make it to tt stage. one, join sdt's productions as these little side characters, OR make it really big and be abnormal and superbly good, and land urself in the company and dance. but of course!!!!!! the first option is much easier. :)
but then, u gotta first get thru ms ong's scolding and dirty stares i suppose. cos she's not too keen on us going for such stuff. dunno why. well, we'll just talk about this more in weeks to come at ballet regarding this matter. steph and vanessa are most prolly going. but if its only them, they are good! and thin. maybe i shall just go and suport them outside along the corridors and be a nice audience/loser. heh
but not much time left. gotta submit audition form by 31st. which is fast approaching.
so coool!!! get so excited talking about it.
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 10:34 PM
