Saturday, February 28, 2004


Was up quite early this morning! i feel like an asshole. a total one.. eek!

and im not replying to mum whatsoever. i guess its just nice to shut up. maybe i should continue the lit experiment ms yap told us to do, which made pei yi look like a sad grumpy old man the whole day. heheeee!! i shall be the grumpy old woman! at least from now till ballet.

im feeling so bad. shit. i cant wait for ballet. for once, im saying this--i need some ballet!!

boy am i soo gonna regret tt after i come home tonight.

dont know if dad's going for lunch w granny later. he asked me along and i said i'll only go if sis goes. granny's in one of her crying bouts again i think...gaaah.

tried to sympathise with her last week, when she WAs crying again. and then its bad i know but it just occured to me. that its all so fake. to a certain extent. i mean she was all grumpy tt dae, until a call frm overseas came and then she was happy sounding for awhile and then back to grumpy zone. and u claim u wanna be with us but you didnt quite talk to us when we WERE there. i dont know what's the fuss about. you dont use us a substitute just cos the dearest arent around anymore!



so no point, everything is so senseless nowadays. people are so sensitive and everything..im so irritated!

i need BALLET!!!!

minus the barre, minus pointe, so that just leaves centre. minus adage. so that leaves with port de bra's and beats. nice slow music to drown yourself in and fast music to just whirl up my mind and release those endorphins.

sucks.

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 9:56 AM