Friday, February 27, 2004


sighh..results are finally out. guess i did ok..but i dunno what im disappointed at. i keep breaking down. the moment i reached home i just cried. and then when dad just called just now i freaking cried again.

i guess i had to let it out. all ive bottled up since 3 plus when i first saw the results slip.

some subjects i did better than expected, but others dropped. individually i think its ok..but when u just add up everything its no good. sigh. dont talk about it already.

and then when i was at the table to get the darn slip, mr teo gave me his silly smiling face asking me what i think i would get. and so i was faking to be all happy and cheery. as usual.

i cant stand it that my stupid frens are backstabbers. it always seems as if theyre so ready to pounce on everything i say. i cant trust them. i just dont have tt faith too cos many times its been breached. they seem to love putting me down and mocking me.they twist and turn wadever i say. i think its best to shut up. then when i do, they sae im distancing myself.how to please them may i know? im sick and itred of it all. WotEveR!

ohoho. as usual, i failed poa. but at least it was a D7. not too bad.

zhenghua sucks. we didnt do well as a school. we "could've done better" i wonder if things would be different if i were in another school.

some people from my og did really well, others not. some got what they wanted others not. so i rejoice with them. but..sigh...

i dont know la. i hate all this.

ok guess i should stop. its not as if im not grateful for what God has given me. i guess its very reasonable and i know his grace was with me every step of the way. its just that after the whole thing, it leaves behind a whole string of..what if's and buts. all too late for regrets. i shouldve worked harder.

my silly mum sprained her ankle just now while smsing me. and i feel a tad guilty but i dont care! cos it was HEr fault for NOT looking where she was going! it wasnt my fault. she didnt have to necessarily reply to my sms there and then! it was even ok if she didnt.

then after the whole thing, a few people started calling me. it got kinda irritating after a while i just didnt bother to reply anyone whatsoever whatever the matter regardless who. its just so IRKING!

now i have to stay in JJ. i dont dread it but my stupid dream of SA has been dashed. i could just murder them.they suck! they suck they suck they suck they suck they suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE!



and to keep everything in line with wadever they love to make up and deduce about me,

DARN! WHY didnT i get my SIX points?!?!?!

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 8:47 PM