Tuesday, November 18, 2003
Know e meaning of hungeR? i sure am famished now. it really isnt a nice feeling to have your poor tummy growling away.
oh well, monday blues have been blown away and it's tuesday dreads today. ok. maybe i get to delight at the fact that i can watch all e ch 5 comedies tonight, and not have to mug anymore. for now that is, or maybe im not.
well, poa was utter rubbish, i wrote a letter to lydia and she did too! geog was...fine. not good or anything. abit bad maybe, cos i was doing the tourism question, as in i kinda had my points, though i dont know if they were relevant, but the thing is that, it was worth 15 marks! for like, four points? as in they already stated it down , what they want you to write about. hmm. but its over. yup. i just feel a B.
got back from chem paper not too long ago, sittting in front of the com just feeling my tummy growling. i AM hungry! oh. chem was disaster. section B just shot me in the head. i lost 6 marks. that's definite. then another few marks here and there. oh no, guess i shant think about it anymore. it just gets me down. i cant believe, much of my grades have already been determined, sth like...ive done all the papers already and well, e results will just show in march next year.
one paper left: science mcq. if i wanna salvage my science grade then i better study for it, but not now. maybe i'll commence tomorrow.
it feels so weird. like i think back, and i realise i came out of most papers with the word sucky shit coming from inside me. i didnt say things out loud, but whatever it is, i didnt feel good about it. but then again. guess it was me hoping hoplessly on things. maybe i was just with e hope tt with O levels, things would change, and for once i would know how to do my stuff, but yea. it was just wishful thinking and dreaming. things just turned out the way they were at prelims. if not worse.
mum's finally back! my lunch is here, good. (:
i'll feel unhappy if i get anything above 15. come to think of it, i'd rather get 20 plus, then get some shit score like 17-20, cos i can still stay in a JC, but its not my ideal. might as well just ship myself off to poly. but then, maybe when things change next year and circumstances take a turn, then maybe i'll appreciate jj and stay on, with little qualms. being complacent me, i guess that would be the case.then i can forget all about doing my dream subjects in SA. oh nvm.
i actually feel kinda cheated. i stayed up till 4 to study chem last night!and i felt quite confident of getting a decent grade, but after i saw section B, my hopes were just shattered. all the mugging the night before. oh but it kinda feels nice to mug during the wee hours of the morning. very peaceful and quiet. when i look out of the window, then all the lights of the next block are off. then u know everyone's sleeping and e light from my room's prolly the only light on. sth like tt. i like the night :)
okok. shall zip outta here now. laters~
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 4:43 PM
