Friday, November 07, 2003
I AM BACK!!!! let's see, ive been missing for close to two weeks! i nearly died. but i guess it really was a blesssing, if not i would have still been on the com non-stop. the traumatising weeek is over for me!! i was urm. almost close to breaking down esp on tuesday, when lit was on wed, and i had close to nth in my head. like. zero quotes. i was panicking, but was lazy-ish at the same time.
so yes. com's all right now. we changed e system to window's xp, and all past doc's and files and folders that i once had are GONE! my music, sent items, blah blah. alll gone! but nvm. so long as im not reminded of them, im ok. can always rebuild. hmm...xp colours on e taskbar kinda funny. like it's blue and not grey. so i guess gotta get used to it. i know this sounds funny but, it feels weird typing. just an absence of one week and well, ive almost lost track. but i guess i still love the com. i feel like vashti! " and caressed her book(com), and was comforted" and " the (com) is omnipotent,eternal;blessed is the (com)" hehehe. ok. some quotes from the machine stops.
so yes, leme recap, math paper one was do able, not as bad as paper 2, but i feel a C or worse coming along for math. physics paper was pure funny, and ss was demoralising. i came out of it feeling like crap and totally crushed tt's y it also kinda affrected me for lit. cos i feared history repeats itself. and i spent e afternoon after ss thinking abt e damn paper, and worrying abt lit. it was terrible! and then to make it worse, while i was just abt settling down at abt hmmm...10:30, some stupid roach came sliding down frm the wardrobe onto the floor. i saw it and just got a shock of my life, ran out of e room and woke my dear parent's up, and after dad killed it, poor him cldnt get back to sleep. so i studied until 1 plus. and fell into bed. the questions were ok in the end. i felt blank at first but as i slowly tried to recall the quotes, i guess i managed to make it through. and thanks to God too of course, cos i could really feel he was with me. i was even going paranoid over the poem hsiao fen gave me for encouragement, i read it in e morning before i left and before i went to bed at night. but it's a really comforting and nice poem.
When examinations come
"Lord,grant me a quiet heart;Before examinations start.Lead me to use my leisure hours; to reinvigorate my powers.My mind from daydream liberate ;Give me the will to concentrate.From all distractions set me free; That in my studies i may be.A student with sole content;To make me work a sacrament.From me faint heart in love expel;All failures,fear that there in dwell.All from my pillow drive away;All dark forbodings of the day.Help me in faith to rest so deep; That i may have untroubled sleep.While notes and subjects i prepare;May i not forget to look; For daily guidiance in Thy Book. In quietness,confidence and peace;May i have quick and sure release. Form needless fears and apprehension;From outward strain and tension.So may examinations find ;Each one alert in heart and mind. Thus inward joy and peace posessing;May examinations prove a blessing."
nice one isnt it.
and i thank God for lots of encouragements from friends through the week. some unexpected ones even (:
indeed, He has been gracious, and will continue to be!
Thank You Lord!!!!
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 4:56 PM
