Sunday, September 21, 2003
science was shit. on thrusdae. lit was...ahhh..stayed up till 3 to try study but nth got in. wadever.
cant blog much. i pretty much lost the mood to, and my dear fren is feeling down over some shark so...yea. i gotta tend to that.
sundae was fine,.
oh. and boy do i have to announce,
IM ACHEING ALL OVER!!!!!! it's like owww!!
i stand up, get into the car, get outta the car, climb up the stairs, EVERYTHING i do, it hurts like fuck! hurts. HURTS!!!!
my back,calves,thighs,butt...
OWWW!!!
arghh!!
mum was looking at my horrible face just now and she was like..aiyoh! you look so old. you have puffy eyes, dark circles and eye bags.
i know mum, i know.!!!
so yea. i feel old, look old. what else?
sighh...
itHURTS!!!!! owww!!!!!!
OWWW!!!!
OWWWWW!!!
OWWWWWWWWWW!!!!
OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!
doesn anione understand my agony? ask any ballet person who was in class yesterday!!!
we're ALL dying.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
ok. enuff about that. was at sunset just now. message was about the usual, marriage issues and blah blah. really nothing to do with me. they're starting on a new topic soon. so good for that.
but those messages did have a slighty impact on me. i was telling chris about it that day. ohh! did i mention?! we talked from 11 to 4 am last saturday and barely had enuff sleep, we were yawning during kid's church. ok that aside.
yea so as i was telling her some of my wonderful hopes and dreams i have ..and we were both soo believing in it and going how nice this and how nice that...when we're both family ladies and we go out together and still laugh so hard like shit heads.ahh..how embarassing. oh but as i was thinking again once in a while about it, and after listening to the messages on how perfect things can be if only we follow God's plan , i don't know. im beginning to kinda doubt that what we tried to imagine would actually come true one day. the world is just too too chaotic. it's beginning to seem to me that it'll be good enough if people are even going to church regularly next time.situations are just so crazy.i sometimes doubt myself too. if i would one day go astray.
oh but then again. my thinkings would all change again. i had crazy, silly ,wild ideas in sec two, and in two years, it's changed. im sure my silly simple thoughts would change again when i reach 18. oh we shall see. when i begin to have a train of though similar to my sis's. i mean to her, im forever kinda thwarted up there, where certain things just don't connect for me.
as a beAtiful example:-
goodness! once, she was talking about them constructing a float for uni orientation and for days i was wondering to myself where they were gonna release it, into what river, or even wrose, swimming pool, when i stupidly blurted out my qtn one day and then she and mum had to explain to dumb me that a float didn't necessarily mean that piece of plastic filled with air. ahh..and then their perception on my shallowness was confirmed once again.
it's not that fun a thing to be growing up. sure we have fun with friends and all, but you see more and learn more. and what you learn just makes you wish you were better off not knowing things.
hahahha. was smsing big alex two days ago. and i was being sensible for once, hehe he noted "wah, u really grow up already" you were one of the worst kid's i knew in kid's church. oh well. now i am just getting a taste of my own medicine.
the kids are noisy!!!! :(
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 10:48 PM
