Wednesday, September 03, 2003
Futile efforts
i tried to go down to mac's just now to start on lit. result: 0. my wonderful self forgot to bring the julius caesar book along!! so i just made do with the unseen book. haish. then i was reading the extracts instead of the techniques used for unseen. but before all that, i tried to write a compo mr chen gave me weeks and weeks ago. haiz. i felt as if i was writing an ss esaay. its really horrible. then i started to get worried cos my english paper is on fridae! and i hope and wish and pray, that i'll finally be able to hit an A for prelims. something ive never done before. and then on saturdae is lit. lit paper 1. julius caesar and unseen. this is really bad. i feel as if my work, instead of getting better is worse! i was reading thru my essays last year and i didnt know i had such wonderful ideas last time. well. they seem wonderful now in comparison to the shit crap stuff i come up with NOW, which dont make much sense . haiz. i cant wait to cross the hurdle of this fridae n saturdae. for both subjects, i have to get the A!!! BUT..worse is, im not even in full gear study mode. i cant believe im actually feeling stress on reaching the A. for others, it's not as crucial, so im not that scared, infact, i feel more scared about not being able to get the A for both, than not passing darn poa.
Todae was Lydia's birthdae, so really, it shouldnt have been official world crumbling day *ahem*it wasnt for me and gang at least. but then again, everyday for me is lala land. so, we managed to fool lydia!!! hehe. she looked so disappointed when she tried so hard to fake being totally happy when we gave her a wrapped present, without the hamster, cos she was expecting one. hahah. and then we put it in her locker, so when she opened her locker, she saw her baby darlings and then she started hugging us =)
it was a good dae. we didnt have ss lesson, and mrs ramesh told us a funny account of her morning rush. how she described 3n3 was really hilarious, cos she couldnt find a replacement tr to take them to ite, and while they were waiting to get on the bus, 3n3 was oblivious to her turmoil and they were like "tr! tr! can we get on the bus now?" and she said okok..go, go, sit in there and enjoy aircon. they were like
yay!! yay!!" ahaha. oh nvm. shall not bother elaborating. u all dont get me i know, but thinking about it again, i cant help but smile to myself.so comical.
to make lydia's dae, raimi, and the hooker didnt come todae! everything went well. plus it was a bright sunny morning. a great dae to start.
currently in school, theres some shakthi mess. and lydia doesnt know what to make of it. hm...we're slowly trying to work thru tt boy's mind n see what's he thinking.
i slept from 4 to 8 in the afternoon. and lydia called me at 5:56 to tell me danny was coming for the party this sundae. haha. she was so happy, but i couldnt think, cos she asked me to guess and i was still on sleep mode. i thot i was dreaming again. oops!
there was once, lydia tried waking me up by calling me a thousand times, and i heard the melody ringtone, i REALLy thought i was in a dream ok!!! then when i realise it was NOT a dream and i was gonna be LATE for school again, i was in panic!!! haish
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 11:26 PM
