Friday, August 08, 2003
today's the eve of national.
"38 years ago, on 9 august..singapore gained independence...we were hopeful..(we were?) and we build up a nation strong and free...."
CRAP.
nvm.
oh we're not goin to malaysia animore. and it's to some fishfarm in pasir ris instead. how uergh. and to start things of, dad's car died on the causwae just now, and we havent left yet. and they told me we were gonna leave at 1. and so i cound't go out to the movies. and so i went home, slept till 2.30. and we're still stuck here. it's that screwed.and my frens are pissed.
worse still, no ones going anymore. sis is stuck in hostel and the isaac has decided not to go too. i wanted to back out too. but it'll be horrid spending national day alone at home. though im capable of that. so i'll be the only largely oversized kid there. and then i was just thinking how im gonna handle a small group of swarming kids wanting my hp to play snake. i told em ill bring it todae so i cant go back on my word. but that's when i thot sis would be going and there wld be two phone's to spare for games. now it's just mine. and i think they're all gonna fight over my little outdated 8250. and i'll hate to watch that scene. hmm... then i'll feel guilty about it. i just pray and hope they don't ask for it. but i'll bring it along laa.
went to the hostel to visit sis and pass her her white tee. poor girl. she looked so tired and worn out. i think she was like gonna cry like that. then mum still had to lecture her. her eye kena infection again. so mum was ranting on and on about the dangers of wearing contacts..and being vain. my mum is capable of being one hell of a nagger. it just irritates me so much sometimes, cos she just rants on and on w/o knowing the full big picture. i've given up argueing. everytime she goes into fits of blabbering, i just grit my teeth and wait for her to end. so poor sis. sis is much better in character than i am so she prolly would listen and feel all guilted. and cos of that, i feel sorry for her. i mean sis, was wearing it for games, so her specs would not be dented or sth cos it was a rough game.
i hate poa big time now. i just don't wanna look at it. everytime i do, i just wanna cry. in a wae. screw everything. and then lydia seems to be having a new found interest in it.
cheena results will be out in two weeks! that's 14 days! and that's half a month. i hate the long wait. i wanna know how i fare. good or not. i just wanna know. i hate waiting for results.
i don't think i'll ever be able to pick up again. it's so sad that everything just has to crumble in my final year. for my case that is.
celebrations were fun just now. alotta screaming and shouting. oh and raimi. he's really certified GAY now. gawsh!! he was wearing MAKE UP, with blusher, and having the same costume as the girls. and i don't know. he looked bad. just bad. the dance was fine, just tt i felt embarassed for him. hehe. i don't even know how to spell embarassed!! paiseh.
leaving soon. bye
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 4:03 PM
