Thursday, August 14, 2003
oh. today was very relaxing.
i missed remedials again. science was cancelled, and english..well..only six were present! and they only did one ws. in my opinion, it was a waste of time!
oh anywae, went for lunch instead. and then was on my way home at four when i met Amelia!! on the way home! so we were reflecting on primary school days once again, and we talked and talked, we sat under her block for 1 and a half hours! we had so much to talk. and if given more time, i believe we wouldn've went on...
it's amazing how four years of secondary school life has just whizzed past me. in a couple of months, all the things about secondary school wouldn be a closed chapter in my life. and then i'll start another. hmm. time really flies.
i read about the NUS lecturer who was murdered in the SCHOOL compound! oh my. that's how "safe" places are now. to think sis was just somewhere across the road from the scene of crime!!! didn't sms her today. i kinda overshot again. i was smsing too much yesterdae and the day before.
oh, i feel that my ballet activities have become so stagnant. i mean last year, we had a performance at some place every three months. so we were in a sense quite busy. this year, seems as if all activities have ceased for me. i mean ballet once a week doesnt really amount to anything. plus last saturdae was a holidae. so it's been two weeks off already. im gonna die on saturdae! maybe not for the people who are taking exams in september. they have ballet almost everydae! so i wouldnt sae, in their case that their ballet life has stagnated. poor girls are training so hard. just glad that im not in it this year. but after the results are released , i'll feel so horrible at the fact that those girls are gonna be a grade higher than me. and alot of them are also improving rapidly, whilst im de-proving. it'll sound so stupid to still be in intermediate grade next year, when everyone else is in advanced. hmm..so shit. and steph would probaly be somewhere like solo-seal at the tender age of 16?! in two years time. she's a born dancer.
going to ballet under the stars tomorrow. and yes, i already have this strong strong feeling that i'll come home feeling like shit and FAT and the entire opposites of whatever a dancer should be. i shouldn't even think of me be calling myself one. mum and dad are coming too. basically, ms ong told the whole class to go tomorrow,cos their staging paquita tomorrow. *ahem* not piggyta. yes i know *embarassed*
i told mum that if she was gonna strike up a convo with ms ong, pls exclude all my fatty eating habits of chocs everydae all the sins i commit which she would really kill me for. my mum has a way of just naturally malu-ating me, without being aware. i remember, when i first joined ms ong in sec one, she had to tell ms ong i liked macdonald's and some other lame sounding thing. i mean, just cos i used to frequent mac's alot didn't mean i LIKED it. rather, i had no choice! made me look like this happy meal crazed kid or womething who goes around singing "that's my macdonald's! =) " wth?!
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 10:58 PM
