Tuesday, August 26, 2003
Oh no cherie! haha. im just a faker. :P i was just too lazy. hmm...i dont think i can recap much.
the only thing going on in my head now, is abt my lit ex book i somehow misplaced on thursdae. and im very very sad n downcast now. It's my LIT book!! darn it!! my notes!! darn it. what shit. i keep losing things. i dont know WHY? first, it was chem tys, then physics theory and then practical, and then this. heck the science, but i cant lose lit! i was crying just now. silly of me. but it hurts. oh well. well, the phycis books were lost by TBC im very sure.
i didnt come online yesterdae, and tts not cos i was studying. i was just out for dinner, and at aunt's place, and car ride and all. i felt crazy too. to be out on a school night on MONDAE!
aniwae, had tuition just now. mr chen was feeling sick todae, he ended 15 minutes early. then i came home to eat dinner. spaghetti! oh. dad's gone overseas again. so its me n mum once more. oh..im getting used to sis's absence nowadays.
it's a horrible feeling to not be able to tell my best fren sth.i told yan shan i wouldnt tell anyone, abt what she told me. but, since, im not telling now. this is my journal, and yea, i can write my stuff in here, so if anyone knows abt it here n tells lydia, then hurray she knows, but i didn't tell her!! whoo.
oh aniwae, yan shan told me she suspected lydia about telling on her to hui teng. and i was the middle person. i was feeling..oh shit oh shit. cos i couldnt think, as i was crying over the lit book earlier, and then plus this topic! where im a really lousy liar, so i turned to twisting the facts a little. i just told her lydia wouldnt tell on her, cos she didnt know and wasnt present at the time yan shan cursed hui teng, and also, the worse thing is, i was with lydia all the wae. so in a wae, yan shan aprroached me, its like...putting me in a corner, cos...i would know what lydia said. well, i simply told her, we only asked hui teng what happened, cos yan shan lashed out at her , and so we were concerned whether they were fighting. so in that wae, that's how i guess hui teng found out abt u calling her stuff. and also, we only knew the whole story of all the incidents when hui teng told us, and we had no idea who she heard it from. (it was from us actually) but we didnt paint such a bad picture. so i dont know why it got so bad.
and then she started telling me why she thinks its lydia, and what else she heard from others. and what they said about lydia. i said i didnt wanna hear, cos if its gonna be bad, i would be better off not knowing. and i gave her some crap advice, to, just clear any misunderstandings she has with hui teng in future, and to make sure no one tells on what she calls hui teng again, just don't curse her anymore. haha. i have a feeling im just gonna be in for big trouble. right now, i'll just try and forget the issue and take tt i never heard it. irresponsible , maybe, but what to do? im the ignorant kind. geez. also the reason why lydia blows her head off at me.
When lydia called me jsut now, i was soo afraid she was gonna ask about yan shan!! heng it was just seetaram troubles once more.. phew [sigh]
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 10:51 PM
