Wednesday, August 13, 2003
i dont know what to feel todae. well, had english orals todae and then it was also the release of the cheena O level results.
i got a C...C for charlene. hmm..so sad.
but i guess it was within my standards. i have a feeling i think they raised the standards so the fact tt i still was able to maintain..i should be happy at it.
people have been asking if i wanna re-take. i don't think i would. seriously, i don't know what's the real thing abt studying HARd..but i know i did do my best in june already. and i'd rather work on other subjects cos chinese isnt everything. and i won't use it to enter JC. now that i got a C...it's like...a calling to me that i can't let my other 6 subjects get below this. though im really worried about poa. argh. shit poa again. it's ALWAYS poa.
ok. i finally understand that i shouldnt expect any suprises for the o levels. cos my sch standards arent remarkable high also. so what grade i get would more or less be the grade i get for O's. wow! that's scarrry!!!
hmm..i feel so scared suddenly. it's finally dawned on me that prelims are in 20 plus days! three weeks! argh. hmm..this is really bad. means it's not laxed paced revisions anymore but the whacking kind....oh shit. am i so dead.
i fear id feel really regretful if i dont retake then at the end, i see all the others who did retake get their A1 or 2....hmmm...ok nvm. i guess it's set that im not re taking.
i decided to be nice to thank anthony. i said "thanx for helping me those past grueling months" he said "i was paid remember?" whoa! i was glad he realised lor~~ and i said im not re-taking, means no extra cash for him also. but i went on to reply "but u still helped me what".
hmm..this is called...pretence gratitude. oh well..actually..he really did help me la. no more hard feelings from me =)
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 9:10 PM
