Sunday, June 15, 2003


i miss my soft pointes!! im so soo sad! its been missing for a month now! so now at class i wear the soft flats instead.

well, it does give me a higher egde above the rest, cos i have a more stable balance, and also, its soft, so it takes to my feet when i point, so ms ong wont be able to accuse me of not pointing hard enough and stuff like that that my poor frens sometimes suffer. but still! i miss them. also, if i were to wear soft pointes, my balance would be totally off, and so would my pirouettes, not that their very stable now also. and that's the whole point! cos, i can hardly do doubles in flats, il never be able to perform them in soft pointes. i'll just fall on my bum. like i did a long time ago.-memories-

and so i searched my little messy room just now. and still couldn't find it!! im getting upset again. firstly, cos a new pair of shoes would be extra HARD, and so, make the pointed foot less visible. and then, it'll be extra wobbly. to my utmost disadvantage. and in those new shoes, i can forget about ever trying a SINGLE, DouBLE, or pose PIROUETTE.then that will lead to "CHARLENE! that's a mental block up there. i want you to stay up. and think of it as a rise, not a turn~!" see. i even can predict what ms ong would say. grins. haha. that's cos she's already said that to me many many times!

ahh. its late. there's church tomorrow, and tuition after. thinking about tomorrow's making me dreary!! esp the tuition part. ah. nvm. i have to keep that positive attitude if i wanna do well enough for maths. a little pain now won't hurt. night.

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 1:21 AM