Friday, June 27, 2003


8.24:- my eyes opened, to meet another new day.

this time, sumhomw, i didn't JOLT outta bed. now this happens VERY rarely. i slowly prepared for english lesson, which was at nine. i just got back actually. we checked our paper one results today. urmm..i guess my paper one is better than paper two, for the compo, i actually got 27/40, and tt WEE thot he was being too generous with marks and so, he gave me a 26 instead. now that's so...saddening. i feel as if it's so near yet so FAR. i'm just TWO marks away from an A!! but i never EVER seem to be able to get there. aniwae, i hope CA would be able to pull up the final score. exam papers alone, added up, i got 65. that's a B3. yes, that isn't high, but it suddenly seems so significant and 'high' to me. you know, wallowing too much in boderline passes, just makes you feel that you're 'not bad' even at a B3...*complacency*

11.30 :- stepped into the house again.

Thankyou just, josh and cherie(of course!) for the little encouragements alone the way. oh. im very much betetr now. haha. actually, i was ok after that night of sleep. =) no worries.

currently, im trying to read up more. im finally picking up books and having them in my hand after dunno how long. i stopped reading the whole of last year. yes. you can say that was very much suicidal! so i rummaged thru the book shelf and found "the diary of anne frank" . a book i really should read. it'll widen my views and knowledge on the jew conflict thing. not so much of widen, but rather, give me some knowlegde, cos im really clueless on that topic. but it don't quite matter, cos i don't take history. HAHA!

i've been reading late into the nights, till about 1 -2 plus. mum says that the time in which the 'growth hormones' start to get to work is between 11 to 1 whilst you're sleeping. and now i know why im simply not growing anymore!!! argh. i sleep at one, or worse, 2. and it's like i entirely MISSEd the 'growing' stage. don't know how true this is, but sleeping late isn't good also. can see the 'fruits' of late nights. i've got terrible terrible eye bags. its ugly!!! i feel ugly! aiyah. but nevermind. ugly is ugly. and u can't change so i won't care. hehe.

2:- meet mum.

yes. Lydia's going out with her other frens today. went to watch charlie's angels. i don't really plan on catching that show but we shall see how. cos for one, im totally broke already. to a certain extent, it's good that the hols are ending, cos i can't go out and spend anymore. so no point staying at home knowing it's cos you have no cash to spend. its a very gloomy feeling.

going to causeway point later. hmm..on second thots, it's not so bad.maybe i wouldn't mind e hols longer. it's not so much of where you go out to but WHO you go out with. now, you see, going out with mummy, means she's got the cash, and so, i still get to eat GOOD food and buy things. haha. -joyful- yay!! sis will be joining us later. ahh. i feel like having pizza hut. i wanna eat lasagne (however u spell it) and spaghetti! yummy food! Last week we had Marche.

uh-oh. it seems as if it's gonna rain. thunder seems to be billowing outside.

it's so early now. i don't know what to do. maybe shall go surfing again, check out new blog templates.

i really hope to be able to get this OP skirt i have been eyeing on for 2 weeks!! and then i wanna go check out metro. the choice of clothes there are pretty. oh yay!

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 12:17 PM