Sunday, May 11, 2003
We're gonna chair again tomorrow for Kid's church( chris and me ) . i haven't really looked thru the hand out yet, so i gotta make this entry short and sweet ( if possible). i remember, the last time we charied. it spelt -d-i-s-a-s-t-e-r-. the kids were VERY rowdy and restless, and some things just didnt turn up well. we even had to cancel the object lesson, which chris and i spent quite alot of effort on =) RIGHT chris? * :P * hahaz...shhh..we know better -winks- and so, with that latest memory behind me, i fear standing up before the kids again tomorrow! i think uncle Kok Leong also took precautions already. he told us to cut back on the pbject lesson this time. i guess he was afraid that there would be time constraints again. and so..i pray for God's help and strength as we deliver his word tomorrow.
Yay! i finally planned out my revision time table. so the biggest challenge is to FOLLOW it. the aim for today was to " study sec 4 chinese and physics" but sadly, i didnt manage the physics part. BUT i read thru lit abit..so urmm.... replace here and there ,should equal up... * sucker again* what did i tell you the last time? ain't it sooo true? hehe.
thank God i managed to wake up at nine thirty this morning despite sleeping at three plus on fridae "nite" / saturday morning. i mean, i woke at nine and and so, decided to stay up, into the stillness of the night, to complete homework and do abit of reflections undisturbed, with the constant, steady hum of the air con working behind me. ahh..ok..not so quiet mebe. i started my chinese at ten, and then there was news of whether i could stand in and take over class cos ms ong was sick ..sadly, i couldnt. lived too far and was busy. but i still went for class int he end, cos i had to return dawn her lit notes. so i spent the whole time comforting and convincing myself that i had to be present today, cos i had the responsibility and duty of returning dawn her precious lit notes. and then we talked alot. and both of us are just as dead, cos we havent started studying for exams...wei shan joined us on the "dead list" also..i got to know her abit better today..actually, i started hanging around her more since the march holidays..when we stepped up on ballet intensives. i realised i am very thankful for such nice frens all around me, sometimes to the point of feeling guilty that im not as nice.i feel selfish as a fren, and am very thankful to many who actually bear with me thanks all u dears! *hugs*.
ive learnt to be grateful for frens that God has given me. i believe in the phrase" Frens are siblings that God forgot to give us". Many times, thruout my life, frens have awlways been there to support me all the time at every phase of my life, good or bad. never once, did i feel frenless. even if things werent going well at school, i know that there was still chris and prav for me all the way.No, im not saying that some frens dont matter as much as some, cos i have others to fall back on, but am just grateful at the fact that there are so many people who care. apart from family, the closest of kin of course.
thru the years, many frens have come and go, but i am grateful for all of them, because they have indirectly built me up to who i am. at some point of time or other. although ive lost contact with most primary school frens, or have seen some change,i'll always remember the times we shared in our younger days.Relationaships should always be remembered,treasured, and cherished.
And so, as i face the future unknown, i would always be glad for the many frens who've stepped into my life. no matter how brief,and look forward to the many friendships i've yet to
establish.
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 1:26 AM
