Tuesday, May 06, 2003


Hmmm..i think i'm the biggest bitch who really knows how to suck up to myself. i'm rushing thru my chinese, only NOW at this unearthly hour, when everyone else is supposed to be sleeping. well, at least there's still Lydia for company..who's talking to this boring homosapien ..and that's why she needs me to brighten up the mood! yaya...:) *ego* and ego at this hour of the early day, is really really bad for the mind. it offsets a- superiority complex - well into the next day..so its taboo.....sheeeesh! now what was that? oh yes..back to sucking up....

i'm trying to make myself happy with myself, that at least im doing work ..(very much cos i have no choice and im gonna die if i dont do it). after lazing around for more than three quarters of the day...i finally...sit down to do my work , driven by a force of fear.and after being close to giving up in cheena, i wanna tell myself to go do social studies,,,so i'll feel a sense of tiny accomplishment. ahhh....i'm soo sooo bad to myself. bitch. bitch.

yah..and so much for sucking up, im here typing blog entry again...far from what im SUPPOSED to be doing. hmm..let's compromise..i'll at least complete half the excercise..kz? *sucker*

ok.ok...so i have to make my grand exit now.... to do S.S!!!!!! by the way..have i ever mentioned that i think i'm chinese dyslexic?


argh. so sad. i kinda messed up html again!!! *sob*

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 12:27 AM