Friday, May 02, 2003


72!!!!i repeat! 72!!! i love the number 72....yup..yup...the story is...i actually obtained 72!! for my CHINESE CA..no joke!!! hahahz..lalala..'im happie happie...i thank God even more now...i see his wonders...really..it's a miracle!! imagine! i was actually among the TOP in class..and its CHINESE..haha...i had to check to see that it was my name written in my scrawny handwriting, cos it was unbelievable! in the name space, it read Chen Su En haha. it was confirmed. that paper was mine!!! the results were mine!!! yoo hoo!! hahaz. so happy happy. so three good things have happened so far. i passed my cheena orals, i did well for the chinese CA..and my ballet exam...well, i was praying about it . i don't know the results yet. but i trust God and his will, whatever it may be. i'll be satisfied with commended and up. i'm really not asking much this time, cos Grade 8 is really sth...

Sigh...sorrie to say, tuition was cancelled again today. but i really couldnt be bothered anymore this time. one, cos i was still ecstatic over the chinese grade, and also, cos i was doing this zhao ju thing, which is a compilation of all the tys zhao ju sections. i was doing that the whole afternoon! i know it's taking too long a time at this rate. and its still not completed, though ive completed most of it. shall ask sis for the meaning of some ci's later. but its rather nice to see four pages of paper all filled with chinese characters. it still gives me a sense of "whoa!" accomplishment!! cos...u don't really expect much chinese words coming out from a person like me. oh! anyway, so funny k..it was during chinese extra's that we started on the ws..then andy kept asking me how to write words...and the amazing thing is, i actually KNEW how to write them! hahaz. but he so lousy! i asked him how to write some words i had trouble with, and he said" i dunno, my chinese very lan" hahaz. and his chinese is really better than mine. then i felt happy again, that i actually knew words i never knew i would. ok..that don't quite makes sense. another weird thing, it seems that now of late, i seem to be scoring very close to what he gets..take for example, there was once this ci yu test, and i failed that by ONE mark, and he got a few marks more...and for the latest, he got 74...and i got 72..haha. so this is crazy, but i have this feeling that if this continues for the O's, i'd get a grade lower than him. So, hahaz...if that were to really come true, i also have to pray that he does well too! so i won't shitty just pass. heee..i know stupid things are coming out from me today...

I sent praveena a sms somewhere in the middle of the afternoon. cos yesterdae night, she was pouring out to me that no one understands her problems, and the extent that her mom was treating her... and i couldnt really find much to say, cos i knew that was true. i couldnt say..maybe she should try and view it in a different light, cos i know she has already tried and she can't take it anymore. i felt helpless...and speechless, cos i really couldnt come up with any more encouragements or any thing to make her feel better. and even if i did, im sure her other friends would've told her the same thing, so many times, that she was probably sick of the same old advice. she wants to go for counselling . i think it's a good idea. I dont wanna see her break down. really...no one can ever imagine the pain . i cant say i can myself. i can picture it, but i'll never know it for real, cos...it's just too much, and it's only through experience,that u can truely understand. i was thinking about her and the issue while walking back home this afternoon, and the verse "cast your care upon him for he cares for you" came to mind. i thank God once again, cos it must've been God's way of using me to help her *i hope* i sent her the message, and i said" when it seems that no one understands, remember, God does" i really hope it would bring her back to realise that no matter what, God can be her shelter and hiding place. i pray for her.

alrite. ive got a ss test tmr, and sadly, i really didn't manage to start study last night, but i managed to fill up my vocab log and vocab excercises up to date, and im so thankful i did that, cos mr wee came to check our books one by one today, and good thing i managed to show him sth. Poor thing, class got scolded again today, cos only four or five pple had their books up to standard. mr wee was disappointed in us. i felt bad, cos it was really our fault. i think this is the worse ive ever seen it. i mean, when it comes to work, the normal case would be everyone handing in, except two or three, but in my class, it's just the exact opposite. sigh... i sunno what's gonna happen when we go to the O levels, but i have hope and faith that we would suddenly buck up, within the next four months before prelims, and FLAP OUR WINGS AND FLY LIKE THE EAGLE !!!!

ok. i'll take my leave and go for dinner now, beehoon's for dinner ( =

charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 7:53 PM