Wednesday, April 30, 2003
I Wanna thank God for the many many things he's blessed me with!! i was reading thru past entries, and i came across the blog the night before the orals..and how i was saying i trusted in God...and i did...and i uttered a little prayer before the exam...and..thank you LORD! i passed! with more than a pass grade some more! the verse which speaked to me was" commit your works to the Lord and your thoughts will be established" taken from psalm 16:3. it was really comforting to know..because i was very afraid that i wouldn't be able to come up with anything to say during the conversational section.
Yay yay! i finally finished my poa todae! it was copied lah...but..at least, its considered "done" . -smiles- had tuition just now..so poor thing, anthony said he would be late, so i presumed he'd be there at 5 so..i left lydia's place at 430..but unfortunately..he was there at 4 20..n the worse part was, no one was at home! justina only reached home at 5..so i was stuck outside with him for close to ten minutes. And bloody !! he stopped my tuition at 6..he took away my half hour! and ive decided not to tell mum about it anymore..not today, at least, or for as long as i can keep it to myself, if not, her impression of him will get even worse..as it is...and unfortunately, its already bad enough as of now. But i'm kinda feeling -bu man- (unfilled) not satisfied.. cos..i think it's unfair..like justina can always come back late..and whatever, but the thing is, it affects ME instead..like..for instance, just now..she started on time, and so, she got the full hour, whilst i lost half and hour..i mean even if i don't take into account the lesson im missing, its money that im paying for the tuition after all right? how can they do this to me??? ArgH. no. im trying not to be pissed here, cos im trying to practice meekness...i suppose? hahaz. but anyway, its not good to be angry. im not exactly sad about the missing tuition part. let's just say, what disappoints me is the kind of
attitude shown. i mean, when i was telling justina, she cooly and simply said "nevermind what" yes. i know no one likes tuition, but even so, its $$ here...i mean, it's auntie doris paying for it..not our parents... i know aunt should know about this, but the way things are being done here, it only reflects badly on anthony one part of it. i mean, after all, im not saying we, the students are in the right here, cos for all you know, he may be feeling
bu man about us here also....
ok..enough about tuition..someone, just help me thru this..though no one reads here anyway. i'll just pray to God. i'm so glad that ive begin to see him working in my life! i prayed before my exam yesterdae, and put all my trust in him..but im feeling abit guilty, cos...i was praying outside the studio, but once i was inside, dancing, i realised, i was actually in a way relying on my own strength. and that is also why, im rather doubtful about being able to acheive distinction.
alrite..that aside...GUESS WhaT???? i'm going camping later!! yay! yay! i love it ! we're gonna camp at changi or sth like that. not too sure myself, but we're going with auntie may's family and mine. i think ive already mentioned this in the last blog. haaz..sorrie..im too excited..imagine the beach! and as i lay down to rest tonight, i'd see the starry sky above me( on that part of the island, should have more stars) and i'd feel a sense of serenity, a sense of peace..wonderful! and i'll thank God, once again for creating the heavens and the earth, the day for us to work, and the wonderful night he gave us to relax and confide and cast all our troubles onto him. to have the knowledge of being able to return at the end of the day, whether good or bad, into the loving arms of the father. ..
Thank You Lord.
"He made the earth, the human race, he made the sun and hung the moon and every star he gave a place.For all he's done,what he creates,we give him praise because our Lord is Great."
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 8:40 PM
