Monday, March 17, 2003


March school holidays have finally begun.It may seem like a relief and a breather to some, but that soo isnt the case in my life. Firstly, i've got ballet class everydae. its called the march holiday intensive. happens every year as long as we're having exams. Oh...sheit. i feel so shitty not updating for two whole weeks! ill try to slowly fill in ok...
Oh, im realli amazed at myself, that i was able to sit down at mac;s tht day for almost 2 half hrs studying science, crash course for the CA the next dae. but thank God, all that work paid off. i manage an A! its soo miracle! i got 20 half upon 25 for chem n 18 upon 25 for physics. And that's a plus miracle there, cos normally, id have done better in physics.ReAlli, thank n praise God!! that was realli God's grace, cos realli, given the ;last minute attempt n wishywashy work effort..realli, wouldnt have been possible!At least my moods r up for the time being, knowing that i managed to secure an A...sumwhere amidst the many tests we took during the first term.=)
And i've got quite a pile of work to clear this week! im supposed to b doing my english compre..i better get down to it after typing. Oh, mum n dad went away for a short break to bang kok last thurs. they just came back yesterday. Then sis, and me were just quietly leading our lives in sgp. it was amazing how koko n granny didnt know until mummy n daddy were almost returning. Actualli, i feel guilty on my part or somewhat, things have changed. Not between us, but between me n how i communicate with them . Eversince mom told me the whole story, i just feel that im on mummy's side.mebe this could be due to my bond with my parents being stronger or sth, but my heart goes out to mommy more. As much as i cant believe wad granny did last time, i still feel sorry for her though. in her heart, must b realli hurting n regretful, but realli, im sorry, i still...cant quite accept what they did to mummy. they may not think the gravity of the situation as so serious, but from mum's point of view, it is. im not totally into mummy, n so dont take any one else's point of story, but..ive tried to look at it from both sides on my part, and , im still on mommy's side. i know God talks about forgiving and forgeting. so that makes me even more guilty and causes me to sin, but..still, i can forgive, but there'll always be a stigma there to the issue and whole matter.
Aniwae, a change of topic, i had a toe infection last week! after using my soft pointe shoes for ballet last mondae, there was a terrible ache in my right toe. i thought i had an ingrown toe nail or sth. it realli freaked me out quite abit! but thankfully, the doc said it was just an infection, blah blah, n he gave me three diff kinds of medicine for my little big toe(irony). there was antibiotics, anti-inflammation and pain relief! hehex. and ..sigh, im not really very good at keeping mediacation times on a strict schedual, and so, missed many dosages. my anti-biotics esp, cos im suppsoed to take it b4 food, and its so funny, that its always right after i finish eating tht i remember that i had to take medication. SHeesH!
Oh, sch had sport's Day last friday to mark the end of term one...i felt so traitor! i actualli went to change into Hawk hse T-shirt, instd of using Eagle hse's T-shirt. hehex. And then iw as cheering for them some more. it took a toll on my integrity! Then after the meet, went to Seoul Garden for lunch. I stuffed myself crazy! -whine- my weight 's terrible now adays! realli! i gained more than i lost prior to the performance!
I finally visited a cinema again last thursday ever since LOTR 2. watched cradle 2 the grave. was rather crap! haiz. i still miss my maid in manhattan.hahaz! yes!
just made plans with lydia to watch it on wednesday night! yay!! that will prob b a better show than tht stupid show.
Lalala..hahaz..okz..hopefully id come back n update tomorrow! Shall go drink a cup of milk before i start proper on english compre. ArgHHH! die! i forgot! got eng test tmr!!!,,woopie! double die..ok..nv mind..clam..chill...God will help me through! =) "But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strenght.." Isaiah 40:31


charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 11:18 PM