Tuesday, March 25, 2003
For the first time, monday blues were getting to me. Ballet class todae was baad. guess today just wasnt "my day" firstly, i had no character skirt, then, i got my dance russe wrong.. then while brushing up, some mao bing got into my hands, and the hanky kept slipping from my hands! after many times, ms Ong finally couldnt take it, and exploded at me! i was like! :x sighh..felt so bad. and also, she was saying that it might be better for mr if i join Masurka. in my opinion, i would think that was a way of saying, i couldnt get the style, and so, should try something else. i never thought this would happen to me. i mean, i realli feel down down down! like...i know this sounds proud or sth, and mebe i am being proud, but, its sth like wen ure up there all along, and suddenly, u are brought crashing down, with so many problems. i guess now, ill just hope that mebe its just ms ong having very high expectations n judgements on us..that we're not all that bad..
or mebe she may know that we are getting abit too confident, that's y she's bringing us down, so that we wouldnt lose our heads. i mean, lately, she's been picking on geraldine too...that day we were just reminiscing that in those times, we were never scolded and all, but now, we're getting the same treatment of those in our g 5 days, who always made mistkaes, and ms ong would scream her head off at them..
Argh..nevermind. i may b depressed, but deep down, i still have HOPE. i mean i shouldnt worry, and just put all my trust and everything to God, rely on his strength. He'll give us his strength when ours wears thin :) i mean, take for example. just now, sis was telling us, how she prayed to God before entering her problem class, but miraclulously, with God's help, they were very good, and they even finished their work in time! Oh the many wonders of God.. God will lead me thru, guide the wae, to him i put my trust, i trust in the Lord.ust remember, philippians 4:13 " i can do ALL thigns thru CHRIST who strengthens me." hmm..this shall be the guiding verse, to see me thru this week , and into the exams... i love u Lord. Goodnight.
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 12:42 AM
