Sunday, February 09, 2003
Oh yay! Lord's day todae. I'm feeling much better compared to the last, altough the issue of math tuition is still at the back of my mind. We're more or less back to the idea of hiring Lester's ex-tuition teacher. But time is the total problem on my schedual. i really have to find time...[TIME]. Aniwae, just finished doing S.S. That stupid re-copy thing. Ihave no idea how it'll actualli benefit us!! And so, i hafta copt qtn 1 twice, n qtn 2 thrice!! yikes! I mean, the twice job was bad enough. Havtn got down to the thrice job though.
The humanities tests wasnt so bad after all -smiles- at least, i knew what to write on the answer sheet! My onli worry is the failure of the skill on how to answer that S.S qtn. But till i get the results back, ill just chill. hahas. I've gotta get down to study for my science. Got a test tomorrow. N a total of 6 chpts to study! three chpts each -groans- . Then, not forgeting my regime of 2 dan yuans of chiense a week. I'm quite behind schedual actualli. Sighh...i have a chinese test on tues, more of like a fu xi. I'll hafta work my butt off for that!!
A break is on the way this wednesday-yay!- but so many things to do!! gotta realli plan, cos after all it's onli a day!
Oh, guess what!? I got thrown in, to replace for some SDC drill Competition this fridae!! and im soo dead! Cos..i onli learnt up the marching format yesterdae, which i bet most of which i'd forget by fridae! u noe, i dunno what, but id realli b dead meat if i screw up the whole thing for them. funny they even trust me into it, or mebe, they were plain desperate. And that's what i think the reason is in my case at least. And to talk abt competitions, ive got 4 days to repair my uniform. Oh yes...its in shambbles. Like which part of me is in tip top condition? I still smile...and laugh to myself everytime i think of that character shoe incident. hahas. Oww..it was giving me a sore at the ball of my foot yesterdae, as we were learning up the mazurka. Oh..back tot he topic, this what i gotta do to brush up my NP uni..:-
*Fix the beret, change it
*Polish my badges -have very few aniwae-
*SEw up the skirt!!
and lastly, *Polish my boots.
Yea, so thats a few more things to do to keep me busy during the week. I'm feeling so all over the placem with so many things to do and so disorganised!!
Hmm...oh yea, back to Lord's day, learnt about not to worry about things todae. i think it very much applies to me, esp with the "crisis" im in now, the lesson just came in at the right time! So...yea..there was like two things we had to take note of, was to differentiate wether our worry was abt things we wanted to achieve, for our own selfish desires, or for God. And i realised that most of my worries were more abt myself than abt God. So, the key i guess, is to look to God in everything, and situation, do it for his name's sake, then the burdens of everything would be less. There was also another thing abt, exchanging our burdens with god's burdens , which would b much lighter, and foccusse on doing his work, spreading his word n living a life worthy of him. Bro miao hock also drew us to the pt that most of our worries ie. school, exams, physical appearance, are in actuality, very much on the realistic point of view, very much pointing us back to the fact of worry due to our own selfish desires. U see, if we want good grades, is it for God's name? or to boast or feel a sense of pride for one's self? in many caes, i think it would b the latter, altough most people would give a spiritually 'correct' answer on the reason. And so, the conclusion i drew from the lesson, was that we shouldn't bogg down oursleves with so many worries of the world. The sense of PEAce, comes from the simplicity of trusting in God and relying on him totally in whatever we do. that wae, all will be taken care of. Some points we can draw to, is to compare, that God took care of the little animals, and so, what more about us, his children? To be worry free, is also to have STRONG FAITH in God, that way, we cast our burdens upon him. "cast your burdens upon him for he careth for u" Oops! dunno where that's taken from! another thing pertaining to what was said earlier, was to
"turn your eyes upon jesus, look full in his wonderful face, and the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of his glory and grace."
Hmm..that song would b a song of encouragement!
Another imopt point, is to take note that we cant serve two masters, meaning, we cant serve God and Man and the same time, but looking a this, serving God would obviously be the wise choice. Matthew 6:23"seek God" and ye shall find i suppose. Align your hopes n dreams n desires with God's call for you.
with all these, before i get back to studying, my last thought: "Faith and Trust God to do the Impossible" take peter walking on water for instance.
charlene said a lil' prayer for you at 6:32 PM
